One day I came to a realization that opened my eyes much wider than normal. It enlightened me to an understanding that I could never reach before:
You don’t ever have to fear anything.
In general, I avoided people who had hurt me or others because quite honestly, I never wanted to see them ever again. It made me upset and angry to see that in this world existed those who shamelessly deceived and hurt others as if it was their hobby. The thought of them disgusted me so I avoided them with all my might so that I would never have to think of them again. And then one day, I looked myself in the eye and asked myself a few questions:
“Why are you hiding?”
“Why are you doing the hard work it takes to avoid others?”
“Have you done anything wrong to them?”
“Have you ever done anything wrong to anyone?”
No. I had never ever hurt anyone intentionally. Ever. Never in this life I had walked out of my house with the purpose to hurt others and deceive them. Then why was I hiding? Because the thought of them upset me. Did I need to? No. I realized that I should not be the one hiding. It should be them – the ones who do wrong and shamelessly hurt others. They should be ashamed of themselves and their wrongdoings and making every effort to avoid the human beings they have hurt. It should never be me. I should not be hiding in a corner of this world, not wanting to go out or trust others. They should be the suffering from all of this. I should be out there doing all things I ever wanted, loving and caring for all the people I ever wanted, and doing all the things that make me fall in love with this world every single day. I should be smiling and laughing my way through life. Since I have never done anything wrong to anyone, I have absolutely nothing to fear. As I walk through life, I choose to never be fearful of those who have the ability to hurt me. They can go ahead and do what they want. At the end of the day, the one who is lacking is not me, it’s them. It is not wrong to trust others. It is wrong of them to deceive you. It is not the person who is wronged that should live being afraid of life, it should be the ones who do wrong; they are the ones who should be hiding.
Never fear anything,
Ish Kish Mish
July 20, 2015