Why are you running away from your pain?

For a very long time, I have not written down and wrote for the larger public. I have been writing continuously for myself these days in hopes of sharing that with the rest of the world one day. I have dedicated a year to let my writing make me completely miserable and it is doing it’s job very nicely so far. When thoughts of dying come back to you, you know it’s working. The past is grabbing you by its ankles and it is not letting you go. And that is why we avoid it. We hide it and try…

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It was not always all smiles

Yes. This was the unfortunate truth of life. It was not always possible to be a smiley face. It was also not always possible to be a sad face either. Two months ago, I started questioning some things. If I am really considered “lucky” (as per my life horoscope), how is being sick lucky at all? Why were terrible things happening to me all over again? Why did I, at a very young age, always had to deal with stupid health problems that even doctors could never figure out the causes of? Why was I a victim of all of…

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