Why are you running away from your pain?

For a very long time, I have not written down and wrote for the larger public. I have been writing continuously for myself these days in hopes of sharing that with the rest of the world one day. I have dedicated a year to let my writing make me completely miserable and it is doing it’s job very nicely so far. When thoughts of dying come back to you, you know it’s working. The past is grabbing you by its ankles and it is not letting you go. And that is why we avoid it. We hide it and try…

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Being in disconnect with people around you

I was caught up in something. I forgot to focus on my main focus in life: moving forward. I was caught in thoughts such as “life sucks, ” I can’t do this anymore”, etc etc. Recently, it’s been feeling like no one wants to understand me. What people want is more important to them rather than how I am feeling. And I realize this is how you end up in a life full of shit, where people just walk alongside you with no idea of what’s going on in your head. They don’t care what emotional trouble you are going…

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Teachings of the Sea

 Written on Aug 15, 2012.  A excerpt from the reflections after the first meeting with the Sea in Dominican Republic, Aug 2012. —————– I have learned a few things from うみ (the sea): Just like the sea, you cannot see life’s end so don’t try guessing. Cherish every moment in front of you and get on the boat. Live life as if it is endless. That way, you will live longer than you have lived – in people’s hearts. The abundance of the sea can show you everything, your weaknesses, strengths, depending on what your mind is thinking. At times…

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