There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
I was thinking of spending my Sunday evening the usual way: watching Netflix. But then I realized I should probably do something productive. These days I have been spending my time dreaming (my 2018 vision). Ideas are flooding into my head and quite honestly, I am not doing a good job of writing them down. Content-wise I think I want to focus a lot more on my videos now. I started a YouTube channel a few years ago but I haven’t done anything too consistently on it. I post a video once a month on what’s been making me smile
- The Smile Project: I really want to take the smile project further. The simple act of recording things that make me smile in a day has been a life changer for me many many times in life and I want to take this tool to others. I think you hear a lot of “be in the present moment” talk but you rarely get to hear how exactly. And I feel The Smile Project is the answer to this.
- Meditation: After a year of gap, I started meditating again recently. I want to document my progress with my meditations and how exactly I am changing as a result of them. I think a lot of people ask how exactly meditation helps a person and this series should answer exactly that question,
- Re-brand my website: Another thing I want to do this year is re-brand my website. I am thinking of searching for a new theme and just organizing things differently.
For now, that’s all for my goals. I really want to jump into video making and editing this year and I hope to document my journeys in video this year. I hope you follow along. Yesterday, I was looking at my old videos and I saw videos for Winter and Spring and it really made me realize what kind of videos I enjoy making. Life, as it is. Just the journey of life. I used to pay attention to so much more before than I do today. I have to get back into paying attention to the little things because in a video you need every single angle. Close-up, far away, somewhere in the middle, everything. It involves people, places, things, settings. A good video I feel is combination of many different angles and many different views. In fact it is a hollistic view of a journey. Journey. I feel like that’s what I should document. My journey in life.
I don’t think that you have to have a lot of things in life to document what you already do. Sometimes you watch videos online and you wish for that person’s life. They seem so happy and content and you want that feeling in your life. And you think that maybe by doing what they are doing, you could possibly be happy. I don’t think that’s the right thing to conclude. Just because a path made someone else happy doesn’t mean it’s the right path for you. But still, this content that we watch online leaves us a with a feeling. A feeling of wanting more. And I think, at least for me, it’s about creating content rather than consuming. The art of creating something requires time and is actually quite fulfilling. And I sincerely feel that the happiness and fulfillment we see in content creators’ videos is not because their life is smooth sailing all the time, but because they take the time in documenting their journeys no matter what kind of time they are going through. I don’t think that if we took the same path as them career-wise we can possibly accomplish the same level of happiness that we see in their videos. I think to be truly happy, you have to walk the path that’s there for you and document it. You have to start telling your story and whosoever relates will associate with you. That’s all. We can change the setting of our story anytime. But the elements of it always contain you. Maybe just focus on you. Share what you are going through today and that’s about it. Just be who you are. Life will keep going.
Hope you all are doing well. Keep smiling like flowers.