There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
There are many types of times. Some might just break them down into good and bad. I haven’t really written for my blog in a really long time. I don’t know what to write either. Few days ago I looked at my WordPress Reader after a long time. Reader is the place you see articles from blogs you follow. Some are seeing the arrival of Spring and some are sighing about the arrival of Autumn in their lives. We are all in the same world in completely different seasons at the same time.
Winter has been great. We had a few weeks of -30s. But we also had a few weeks of -10 and 0s. The days to love. Spring is on its way and now everyone is positive that there will be no snow anymore. I hope so. I am in mood for Spring and others around the world in their own seasons. Australia getting ready for hibernation. India for the heat of summer. And who knows what’s up in Iceland and Russia. I don’t really know. But seeing posts from around the world lets me see the big picture. We all are going through something. On some level, we all might be suffering from some sort of disease, knowingly or unknowingly, physically or mentally. Some of these things we got as gifts, from the countries we were born in, some from religion, some from family & culture, and some just from our life experiences. All of us have some sort of past, present and future. The past we can’t change; the present is in front of us and the future… unknown. Perhaps in the present we are feeling some things. Some as a result of the past (the time that’s gone) and some as a result of the future (the time that’s not here yet).
It is said that life is lived in the present because that is really the only time we truly have. But perhaps what we are dragging along with us is not from here but from the time that’s gone. “A time that’s gone”. It’s very weird to say that. Because it feels like we drag it along. All of our lives. Experiences change us and perhaps past remains unresolved. Not in the past. But in the present and the future. Let me warn you. I don’t know what I am really trying to say yet. I am a bit lost too. I feel way lighter than usual. But I know life awaits. I know experiences await. To load more onto my back. What will I do then?
If something always awaits to tie itself to you, how can you ever be free? Of anything and everything? How can you ever be “as light as a feather”. I mean I can still taste the dressing from lunch in my throat…so how can I possibly be free of what’s already gone? I am on another planet it seems. Perhaps that’s the magic of medications. Just here. Nowhere else. Apparently this is the normal state of being. Nothing touching you. Everything going its own way. And when something does intersect your path? You can handle it. That is the difference. I didn’t believe that before. That I can handle Life. Or anything else. Or that other people can either. Every human can handle themselves, their life, their everything, regardless of what they believe. God made us to be able to handle everything, whether resulting from past, present or future, even when we, ourselves, might not believe so. Life will bring tests, challenges, people, situations, circumstances, but regardless of it all, we as living humans can handle everything. We can go through everything and still remain alive. We can pass through life with our baggage. And if we really really want to, we can burn that baggage too. We can live with or without whatever we want. Some things will attach themselves to us but we can take them forward or leave them behind. We are the ones who can own it all. There is a fate but we can change it. There is a “I can’t” but we can smash it. We can change our path with our own 2 hands. If we want to.
You are STRONG!
Ish Kish Mish
Mat 24, 2017