There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
2017 is here a lil’ too early. I am not really getting the NEW feeling yet. As you know, I always set a vision for a new year. Last year my goal was to DARE as much as possible. I did that so well that I broke a wall as strong as The Great Wall of China within me. The struggle continues and I am breaking more and more of these walls. The unfortunate part of this story is that because these walls are within you, you are breaking yourself at the same time as you are making yourself. There’s letting go of what you have lived with for so long and nervousness of jumping into a completely new world. You’ve never been here before. You don’t know the rules. You don’t even know which game you are in. All you know is that you’ve been placed here by God and you just have to go with what he wants for you. I cannot be mad at him either, I have done that before. I just have to go with the flow. Whether it be crawling or jumping on one leg, I have to go on. There is no other option. Options I do see are simply traps, lined in a queue one after another, waiting to entrap me. They are successful. Or so they think. While I do something much more courageous: I untwine each trap one by one.
2016 was a year in which I realized that there is absolutely no power in this world that is stronger than a living human being. In fact, the biggest fear of any evil power in this world is the fact that you are alive. So while demons trap you and push you into a corner of hopelessness, remember: you, alive and breathing is what they are scared of. Because you can make a difference. You can make this world a lil’ brighter than before and that threatens the longevity of darkness. So the war will continue for me in the new year.
In the meantime, I have decided that 2017 will be a year to REST & RELAX. To let myself go through everything I need to go through and receive myself with love and care in the end. So, Happy New Year! And I hope that if you are also mid-war like me, don’t worry if old things have continued into the new year. If you keep fighting in an healthy way, a new life will begin, changing your destiny forever.
Keep smiling like flowers