There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
Originally written more than a month ago
It is with a very heavy heart I have to share that Sant Baba Labh Singh ji, the head of Killa Anandgarh Sahib has left this world at the age of 96. While as a mere child I understand that people cannot live forever, I am deeply saddened by this loss as the Pabla family had a deep connection with him for all of their lives. I have known him for all of our lives, ever since we were little and I really don’t know how to let go of a person who was so close. Ever since we were little, we would go to Anandpur sahib on Hola Mahalla and meet him every year. This became difficult when we moved to Canada. But in all honesty, I really understood the importance of this figure in my life 2 years ago when disease caged me and I had no idea how to find a way out of my my own mind. I have no idea why but in the most troublesome times of my life, I went to Anandpur Sahib and he and my grandfather sat along with me in my meditation as if they had always known that this day would come one day and they would need to be there for me. Having them beside me was so comforting. Because those days of anxiety and depression were very gloomy and there wasn’t really any source of direction. And although I couldn’t really sit there and tell them exactly what was bothering me, I could ask God for help through these figures who had meditated all their life. It was comforting to have this kind of help with me. To be connected to them. To know that I come from a place where I am connected to people who are so close to God. To have access to such kind of strength and power in life. There are a few things I have learned from him.
- One thing is to know people. He knew every person in our family, including who does what. Having that level of friendship with my grandfather was admiring. Being actually interested in people to that level, to know their family to that level is a gift we all have been benefited from.
- Second thing is to know that you can access God from anywhere, through yourself. You just have to believe. You could be in any part of the world. The religious value that the killa Anandgarh holds is with you at all times, no matter where you are in this world. Anandpur is a very powerful place and we should all always remember that. Whenever I have an unsolvable problem, I always go there for help.
- The third thing I learned was that in God there are all answers. God is the transparent being in which we can see ourselves.
Families all over the world will feel the loss of babaji as he had touched the lives of many and guided many people around this world to lead better lives. I hope that he rests in peace. And I know that although he is gone physically, he will live on forever in our hearts. And whenever there is something I cannot solve by myself, I know he and my grandfather will appear again and help me out because I know that they may be gone for the world, but for me they are still alive.