There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
When I was a child, someone (I don’t remember who!) told me that if I sit in a dark room, close my eyes and work hard enough to concentrate in the area in the between my 2 eyes, and repeat Mool Mantra* over and over again, I will discover a light emerging from within. At that time, I did try it and as far as I remember (and perhaps it was due to my imagination or perhaps, reality), I did discover it: the light within me.
Over the last couple of years, I have wondered (perhaps, unknowingly) quite a lot about it. The light within me.
What makes me realize my dreams?
What encourages me to think differently?
What encourages me to look beyond the surface?
What gives me the strength to keep on believing, in life, and in myself?
What makes me feel alive?
What forces me to change my direction when I choose the “normal” ways ?
What makes me stronger?
What helps me make the best of current moment regardless of what’s happening in the other areas of my life?
What saves me from my own misery?
What supports me when I have to deal with things that are not under my control?
What brings me back to my attention every single day?
I think it is the light within me.
So regardless of what I may gain or lose in life, I will always and always, believe in the light within me. If, for a short time, we really forget about everything that may be happening in all areas of our lives, and focus completely on ourselves, I believe that we’ll find all the answers we’ve always been looking for. It’s just a matter of taking the time to find that light within you.