I don’t like shopping very much. The thought of looking through so many things and having to decide which one to buy overwhelms me. It is the most annoying thing in the world. However, since a while ago, I have been working on making my feelings my strength. In everything I do, I have been trying to look beyond what I feel to what I want. What I want are all the things I need in order to make my life more comfortable. Every time I look around and do not find what I need, it is because I have not made the effort to go all the way to the store and buy it. I have thought of this activity as too much work. I do not like that feeling, the feeling of not taking care of yourself and not being able to get over the thoughts that prevent you from doing what you need to do. THAT feeling is much more annoying than having to go the store and make the decisions – that I am not doing what I need to do for myself because I just can’t get over my mind.
So one day this summer, to help myself, I decided to go to the store located on the other end of the city. To make my decisions easier, I had already looked through different products online and had made up my mind on what I need to pick up. It took about half an hour to get to the store and I still kept confusing myself because the prices in the store were different from the website. Regardless, I picked up all the things I needed, found something that would be of interest to my mother and got her to go to the store in her town (lol) and made all the decisions on the phone with her. There were some things she was looking for for a long time as well. I found out what it was called, messaged her, and she was able to find what she needed through the help of an associate. Finally, we had all the things we needed. Little things that we have always wanted, things that’ll make life easier and more fun, things we have looked for in many stores, things we weren’t able to buy either because we weren’t sure what they were called or couldn’t find them at the right price, things that will make it easier to enjoy our life – indoors and outdoors. The thought of spending so much money in one shot scared me but I was determined that I will not walk out of here without buying the things that I need. It took 3 hours but it was so worth it. Because of it, I can now sit on my new folding chair in the park and write this article under the sun, just the way I like it. Life becomes wonderful the day we decide to get over our mind and reach for what we want, even if takes 3 hours. Summer love to myself and my new stuff! <3 <3
Love is forever,
Ish Kish Mish