Date: Dec 22, 2014
“The Smile Project” is about focusing on the happy things in life and making the effort to record and remember them. By the end of this project, I hope to have a huge list of things that made me smile at some point in life. You can join as well. 🙂
My Bouquet of Smiles for Today:
1) The Making of Pita Bread:
What a joy it is to make something new in the kitchen :D. Since I have been addicted to Pita bread recently, I thought I’d try making it myself. So finally after letting the dough rise for like 3 hours and rolling it into balls, it was time for the funnest part: rolling hahaha. Or so I thought lol. No matter what you do to roll the dough out, it kept contracting and testing my patience. After many minutes of aggressive play with the dough, I was able to make 4 beautiful pitas. Unfortunately, due to all the frustration that went into rolling them, I had squeezed out so much air that when I cut them, there were no pockets in the middle hahaha. I had ended up making the Indian classic bread called Naan hahaha. See? If you try, you can never lose. Will try it again some other day.
2) The 2nd Step on the Ice:
I took the time to go to the skating area once again. It had been snowed on and 2 kids were still skating around. My mission was to walk on the ice all the around the rink. It could’t have been easier with all the snow on top lol. I took the time to dig for the ice under the snow and practice sliding my feet on it. I am also happy to report that I was able to slide in a circular motion too without feeling like I was gonna fall and break all the bones in my body (which is my usual thought). Ice is not as scary as it used to be. It feels nice to have that connection with it now. When the snow has been removed from top of the ice though, I will go again and see if I can make it without falling.
3) The Christmas Presents:
I had no idea. In my co-worker’s office, around a small decorated tree are sitting (and waiting) the presents wrapped up for everyone. My boss seem to have prepared them for all of us before he went on his vacation last week. I don’t think I have ever had the chance to wait to open a present that is sitting right in front of me lol All that anticipation about what it could be…. It’s sweet.
4) The Countdown to going Home (-1):
In order to prevent myself from being stuck in a crowd mess on Christmas Eve, I decided to take that day off and go home a day before. My cousins have been sending me “I miss you” messages and pretending to be crying over my absence so I thought I should give them a surprise.
5) The Holiday Nails:
I finally took the time to paint my nails with 5 layers of coatings lol. Yes, that takes a lotttt of patience. I used to love painting my nails back in university and I even found some nail crazies to form a club with but I guess as time goes, some things go with it. I am glad I did this because I just can’t stop looking at them lmao. Let’s just say that they sparkle like the stars in the sky 🙂
Today’s lesson is about exploring the depths of your heart and it’s a lil’ bit serious. Ever have a feeling that the happiness in your life depends on other things/people? That spending time with others is great and definitely brings joy in your life, but after a few days, it just fades away? Why is that no matter how many friends we have or how many people love us, deep down inside something still feels missing? I used to think that that feeling exists in me because I don’t have many friends or that I don’t have a love. Yea… found that it was not the case. No matter what I had or who I had, I still felt out of place in my own life. It wasn’t a huge problem or anything but I am person who doesn’t stop until I find all the answers. So I continued exploring…
So really, what the heck was missing? I mean I have everything that a person could possible hope for – an education, a job, a family, a place to live, ability to buy things I want and ability to go wherever I want whenever I want. So what was this non-sense feeling of missing something? It sounds crazy, doesn’t it? Yea, most people don’t even realize they have everything they want in life because regardless of everything, they still feel incomplete. And unfortunately, feelings are feelings. They are inside our hearts. They drive our lives. They drive how we react to everything. It’s crazy.
This non-sense feeling that makes you feel incomplete and broken is made up a lot of things. It’s made up of grief, resentment, anger, regret, fear and lots of other things that have piled up in our hearts since forever. The weirdest thing is that most people don’t realize that it’s there and it’s hurting them. We don’t realize it because it is hidden deep deep inside our heart, in a corner where even we can’t find it anymore. We, ourselves, put it there so that we would never be able to find it. Ever. You know why? Because we think that that’s the only way we could prevent it from hurting us. But the sad truth is that it’s been dragging us down ever since. We blame everything around us for the way we feel every day but the truth, unfortunately, is hidden inside of us. Hidden so well that we don’t even know that it’s there.
I had this striking realization through a meditation that I was just trying out for “fun”. It wasn’t so much fun to see myself in tears though lol. But I now know I am on a journey to self-discovery. Constantly in life, I will have to revisit my soul, explore the truth inside my heart and take action to let go of feelings that are not serving me well. Only then I will be able to feel together and complete. No number of people or things will ever be able to fill the void in my heart. PHEW! lol Now take a deep breath and smile lol 😀
❄ Thanks a lot for reading. 🙂 ❄
PS – I won’t be posting much over the next 10 days but I will continue the Smile Project in my mind. I hope to be able to write more and share other awesome discoveries with you in the new year. Wuhuu!! Only 9 day to go until 2015!! Stay awesome. Stay cool. And as always, keep smiling like flowers!! :))
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