You have to dream before your dreams can come true – APJ Abdul Kalam

It’s April 14, 2018 today. It’s also Baisakhi. The day Khalsa was formed. When we were young, we would go to the temple at 5am and take a bath in the holy waters of the sarovar. In Canada, there are no temples with a sarovar. Even if they existed, it would probably be frozen at this time and taking bath in it would be like taking bath at the sarovar in Hemkunt Sahib. LOL! Cold and frozen. By April, usually the temperatures really warm up in India so it’s not that bad. The only issue with me is that ritual…

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My relationship with God

As an Indian, we are born with a great gift: the understanding that God exists. It is not something that is questioned like in the western world. It is simply an understanding we have. Until I came to Canada, I had never heard of the term ‘atheist’. Upon finding out about it I was kind of shocked. The fact that a human could exist without understanding of God puzzled me. I had never heard of anyone who did not believe in God. People around me always thanked God for their existence and everything they had in life. There are even…

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My Meditation Series – Youtube Videos

Hey everyone, I hope you all are doing well. February is almost coming to a close (I know!!!). The good news is that I have began working on my video making goal already and have started a new series on Meditation. The focus of this series is to document my journey of meditation and how I change as a result of it. It is intended for all those who are either thinking about meditating or are in progress. Meditation has been a life-changing practice for me and I want to share this journey with others. I am sure that someone…

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How 2018 is going so far

Hey there followers! I haven’t written something for a while. In fact, January has passed already and it is Feb 2 today. Winter is almost over. Maybe another 2 months or so and that’s it. I am feeling much better. A large part of it had to do with not being happy in my job anymore and something shifted in my mind last month that made me realize that it’s not really that bad. For my current circumstances, it’s perfect. I can’t have a stressful job right now because my mind gets overly active about things and starts worrying. I…

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Being in disconnect with people around you

I was caught up in something. I forgot to focus on my main focus in life: moving forward. I was caught in thoughts such as “life sucks, ” I can’t do this anymore”, etc etc. Recently, it’s been feeling like no one wants to understand me. What people want is more important to them rather than how I am feeling. And I realize this is how you end up in a life full of shit, where people just walk alongside you with no idea of what’s going on in your head. They don’t care what emotional trouble you are going…

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Speaking up

I don’t know why some things are so hard. All I can say is that they are. But I think that all we can do is try and see what happens. If we never try, we don’t know what the outcome might be. If we want any say in the outcome at all, we must give it some effort. I am not a very expressive person. I can hold onto many things that I actually should have said out loud. And because those things stay in my head for a long time, when they come out, they are usually not…

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Life is changing

I have been a bit on the edge today. It’s weird. I tried to write this on my Facebook but I felt more comfortable writing out my feelings on my blog rather than Facebook. I feel much more safer here even though this is a platform much less private than Facebook. I think I may not want all the people I know to know what I am going through. I don’t want anyone’s attention. I just want to feel comfortable sharing who I am and my blog is the only place I feel comfortable doing that. I tried the volunteering.…

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Boosting the energy in my life

It’s at least been a month since I decided to hit the gym after work for half an hour and pump some motivation into my life. A month ago I was feeling so beaten by life and work that I wanted to do everything to get away from it all. I couldn’t bear anything in my life anymore and I wished that I could just escape to somewhere. Instead of making the stupid mistake of leaving everything behind, I told myself I couldn’t sit and feel sorry for myself. I had to do something to prevent me from feeling like…

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The first weekend by myself

I have had a pretty lazy weekend. Quite honestly, I have spent it doing absolutely nothing other than sitting around and sleeping as much as possible. It wasn’t until now I realized I should get up and eat something. Reluctantly, I made roti and finished the leftover veges my mom had given me last week. I haven’t even made anything new. Couldn’t even go get grocery. I was just too overwhelmed. Too overwhelmed with the fact that I have to work. That that’s the normal that humans live in. There’s no point talking to anyone either because that’s what everyone…

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Moments from misery – Anxiety and Depression

It’s 6:00pm. I am not home yet. I don’t have productive evenings. I go to work everyday not really feeling my best most of the times and then I come home and are even more energyless. I don’t feel like doing anything. All day and all evening. Some people like to take the easy way and call it laziness. I personally don’t know how to describe it. I have tried using some words but they sound too extreme and make me feel like there is something wrong with me. Now it might not be completely wrong that something could be…

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