There's a longing in our hearts that takes us to places. It takes us to our dreams. Somehow, someday, our heart rips through our thoughts, our mind and stands out in a way that's impossible to avoid. Because quite honestly, it's been quiet for way too long. We have been ignoring it for way too long. The heart guides us to our purpose - the reason we were brought into this world. There's a power in our heart that cannot be defied; it shakes us to our very core, hitting our thoughts like hail hitting the trees and shedding them in the process. There's a power in our heart, a truth that can never be hidden or ignored and the longer it sits there, the more powerful it becomes.
In shaking off these layers and accepting them, I have realized something…. It is the purpose of my life. The purpose of my life, I realized, is to be a flower. To be that one thing in the world that exudes laughter and love. In listening to my heart, I have realized that the only thing real in any moment of my life - is laughter. The only moment real is the one in which we unstoppably burst into laughter and spread seeds of it into the wind to be taken far far away, into the parts of the world we may never be able to touch or see.
But laughter is not constant. The winds can change direction and flowers can wilt. What once looked beautiful can now be completely dead. The heart can tremble yet once again at the loss of the ones we once loved with all of our hearts. With their beauty, we survive. In their beauty, we thrive. Perhaps they are still beautiful, we just need to remember. When they have lost their vision, we need to be their eyes. We need to remember them for who they are and who they can be. Goodbye is temporary. For in this lifetime, they will blossom all over again. This is the life of a flower and the life I am meant to live.
Hence, with broken sentences and unfinished books, my message to the world is simple:
Live like a flower.
When it's time to wilt, wilt. When it's time to bloom, bloom. Live like a flower and bring with yourself a laughter that will rip through the sky and spread with the wind like an irresistible desire.
Keep smiling like flowers,
Ish Kish Mish
July 27, 2015, 8:17 PM, Regina, SK, Canada
It took me a really long time to realize that in this life I was a very special person. In my own life and in others'. I was a person who entered your life and never left. Someone you could never afford to be fake in front of because I always saw right through you. I saw right through the million layers you had built around yourself and made you come face-to-face with your reality. From that you wanted to escape and bullshit me over and over again. But then again, I saw right through you. In front of me, there was absolutely no escape. In front of me, you had to show who you really were and let yourself be vulnerable because the only you who could meet me was the person you really were, not the person you were trying to be. Sometimes it took months, sometimes years, sometimes even a lifetime, but that was ok. If you had met me and were part of my life, some day you understood. That you'd have to throw away all the crap about who you think you are supposed to be and let yourself be who you really are. With me, you were just you. That was the power of my presence in your life.
I love trees. There was a time in my life when I felt so much happiness inside my heart, I would say Hi to every single tree I came across and tell them that I love them. Every day my morning walk to work included this outward display of love. When I went to forests, I saw hundreds and hundreds of trees. I felt so happy, so loved. I told them all that I loved them. And in the shittiest days of my life, they visited me in my meditation and sent me immeasurable amount of love. I was touched. In a place so full of fear, I had room for love? It was a miracle. But since then I have lost touch with them. I have not stood and observed a tree, sat down in the park and tried to draw its every branch, captured it in my photos. I have missed this connection to the strongest and most grounded living creature on earth. We are humans and we have the ability to go anywhere in this world and experience anything and everything this world has to offer. But a tree doesn’t have this opportunity. A tree stands still. With absolutely no measure, no sense of time. Time means nothing to a tree. Life is simply endless. Like the never-ending sight of an ocean. Being grounded, being still and being timeless is what we learn from a tree. I invite you to go out today and hug the trees around you. Living is about connection and it doesn’t always have to be with a human. Be present in nature and love and feel all living beings as much as you can. Once life is over, it is all done. No more connections can be made. Be like a tree. Feel the air, the wind, the rain, the snow, the sounds of annoying humans/animals walking by and spread seeds of love without thinking too much. And watch it all grow. We have the tendency to get caught up in dreams, the kind of life we want to lead, the people we want to have around but maybe just for a moment, drop everything and be still. Like there’s only you and the air. Nothing else. Feel it, enjoy it and let it even make you cry. Living is adventure no one can take away from you. – Mar 6, 2019